Everyone but me

Saturday night I went out with a bunch of friends to a bar to celebrate a couple of friends' birthdays and my friend graduating from her PhD program. That night I found out that a couple that was on their way to the bar got engaged that morning. As we were congratulating them, I looked around and realized that everyone I was standing with was either married or engaged. In fact, everyone there but myself was in a committed relationship; eight were either married or engaged, two were in the serious relationships and I was the only single one there.

I don't think it would have bothered me so much if the husbands/boyfriends weren't there, but even if they weren't I'm not so sure. We went to the other part of the bar where there was dancing and it was so lame. It was seriously like an eighth grade dance. All of the guys were hanging around on the outside while all of the girls danced in the middle. On the occasion that a guy did try to come and dance with us, which were ALL ridiculous attempts, they all gravitated to my married or taken friends. Of course, they all kind of moved away and the guys eventually left. I couldn't help but notice that none of them came in my direction. Even if they did, it seemed like my taken friends just wanted to dance with the girls.

I feel like if I go out with them in the future, they would act the same way. They'd just want to dance with the girls and not want to dance with guys, which I totally understand. If I was in a relationship, I probably wouldn't want to dance with random guys, but for me, it feels like they are this buffer that push any single men away. I mean, you can spot their bling from a mile away, I feel like guys will just ignore us and talk to someone else. So frustrating. I miss the time when me and my friends were all single, which was like 10 years ago. Shouldn't I be wishing I was taken instead?

I can't remember who wrote it in their post, but someone said that you have to want to "play the game." I feel like I have lost all interest in the game. I don't know if it's because there isn't anyone that I'm interested in at the moment or if I'm just too tired to get my hopes up. I feel like I've run out of steam. It almost doesn't even seem like it's a factor anymore. Dating. It seems so foreign.

This might sound really weird, but I was talking to my mom about my nephew and potty training. He's only 1 years old, but he's gone on the potty at least twice. My mom was saying she feels like there's this window where they're interested and willing to give it a try, but that you have to catch them and encourage them during this window or it could pass and then they don't want to do it anymore. Then you have to wait until they're interested again, which could be years away. I feel like my love life is like potty training. I was interested in it years ago, but that passed and now I don't want to even try and it might be years until I'll feel the urge to go, I mean try again. ;p