So, I was walking to a friend's BBQ tonight in a nearby town and I realized that it's the neighborhood where T lives. So, I thought, wouldn't it be weird if I ran into him. Of course, sometimes I think that since we work in the same area, and of course I never see him. I mean how often do you really run into people, right? I don't anyway.
Well, of course who comes running down the street right toward me but T. We just said hi and the "oh, what are you doing here?" type thing and parted ways. I don't know what it is about him. I know we don't have much in common, he was totally rude when we went out the two times two, yes TWO years ago, and he's made no effort to try and sustain a friendship with me. Yet, I still get this feeling of, I don't know what it is, I guess you could call it lust.
He does this thing with his eyes where they're always shifting and he looks at you and looks away constantly and it's almost like he doesn't want to get caught really looking at you and for some reason that really gets to me. It makes me think he doesn't want me catching him looking at me...or something. Man I am really starved for man right now it's not even funny.
I'll prolly email him tomorrow...because I hate myself just that much.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Posts
3 comments:
Please say you didn't do it!!
i didn't. it's too personal, just me and him, and it gives him more opportunity to hurt my feelings directly, especially if i say something like, "we should grab drinks soon" and then he says no or doesn't respond.
Instead i posted a message on his facebook page saying "funny bumping into you yesterday. hope your summer's going well." just very vague and general with nothing for him to follow up with.
so all he posted in response to my post was "you too. sorry for the late reply. hope all is well."
that's it. that's how it going to go. i knew it would, but for it to be in public as that's how he feels...just stings for some reason. it would've stung if it was just between us, but for the whole world to see, it stings too. sigh. i can't win.
Post a Comment